finding things to keep me busy without football on sunday.

i forgot to mention that i went to an eye appointment at pearle vision yesterday. the lady had texted me saying that she wanted to reschedule it before i got to the appointment- so the optometrist couldn't even see me. i had to reschedule the appointment for next saturday now. i could've sworn i've already been to the eye doctor a few weeks ago anyway but it could just be my brain putting false memories in my head again- like it tends to do. fredrick is gonna take me to pottery barn in about an hour now. i've never been to the actual store before, so this should be fun- considering i don't have football to watch until TOMORROW.
i'm still annoyed because i'm not sure if amanda tries to make it look like she's actually helping me or TRYING to help me. I'VE ATTENDED THE COURAGE CENTER OVER 15 YEARS AGO. I'M DONE WITH THAT SHIT. and *GASP* i DO have a BRAIN and i realized that all they fuckin did for me was provide me a gym to practice walking in (I CAN WALK ANYWHERE- SO I DIDN'T REALLY NEED THE DUMP). i don't just do whatever the fuck pleases my unsupportive, incompetent family. they were also probably trying to cover their asses because they probably assumed i sued someone for my car accident and didn't wanna be sued, so they were punishing me outta being overprotective dicks. the therapists there came up with the excuse of "liability" for not letting me do things which would've REALLY helped me become more ambulatory. the only person in this world seen that (my grandma) which is why she found tram to help me with ARP therapy. he was the one who actually got me out of my wheelchair. she's (amanda) like everyone else in this damn world who only helps when it's beneficial to her. like the ics worker who refused to help me unless it was "one of your {my} goals". she got butthurt after fredrick actually went with me to get my eyeliner tattoo'd on and i think she may have been the one who helped me find the place. although- i paid for it outta pocket.. so fredrick went with me. also- she more than likely had other ics clients to see.